There would be nights that I would just kill to hear his voice.. To be honest, the fighting sounded much better.. At least when we were fighting, he would reply to my messages. I send tons of messages. But I got absolutely nothing.
I stayed up late just sending messages about how I feel and everything that went on in my head..
October 3rd 2011 3:32am
" I feel like the most annoying pest and obsessive stalker ever.. This is crazy but I think about you everyday. And I think about how much I messed up with you. Yes, I should have treated you better. Yes, I should have appreciated you more. And yes, I shouldn't have taken you for granted. I'm freaking crazy about you. I miss you so much. This honestly sucks.. I thought about it, and we did break a lot of promises. You promised you'd never leave.. You did. I promised i wouldn't get jealous, I am mad jealous. We promised eachother we'd always talk.. That's broken. Ya know? There were times that I would stop talking to you just to see how you'd react or If you'd fight just to talk to me.. You always did. Now I'm fighting for you. And I understand you don't have feelings for me at all anymore.. But, I'm ready to be yours, I'm ready to come to Nebraska. Ugh.. But now it's too late. I am awake and it's 3:30 am and I can't sleep. I'm always thinking about you. So, I am fighting for you. And.. Believe it or not, I would do ANYTHING for you. Not even kidding.. All I am wanting is just a response.. Please.. I know you've changed. But, I know that Casey I love is in there. Please! But.. I'm gonna try to sleep. Gotta get up early.. Goodnight.. xx "
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