He has changed. I mean, people do change throughout time. I really should have expected it.. But, i don't know if these changes are for the best. I mean, i love the kid! I do! But, i don't know if he's the same guy i pictured my future with before.
Don't get me wrong, i want him in my life.. But, i don't know if I'm giving him the right role in my life.. I understand that people make mistakes. Nobody is perfect. But, his mistakes will effect the rest of his life.. And i just don't know if I'm making the right choice.
Damn.
Im honestly stumped. Im starting again with Case. Starting from scratch. Getting to know the NEW casey. I really don't know if this is what i want though. Am i gonna have to wait another 4 years? Because i can't do that. I am just honestly lost.
Maybe i don't want this. I don't know. Or maybe I'm being dumb right now. I have wanted this for 4 years. Maybe I'm just over it. Maybe i'm over thinking it. Maybe i need to meet him. Now. Or maybe, just maybe.. I need to stop "Chasing Nebraska"....
#WaitingForASign
