.Dear.Lover.:.Leave.

Lately it feels like my blogs are getting shorter and much more repetitive. Why? Mainly cause Casey never replies. Never talks.

Anyways. Since my last blog, i have sent a few messages back and fourth with Casey. Well.. He has finally just told me that he has given up on me completely.. He decided that after waiting 4 years. Soooo thats super awesome..

It kills me because i so badly want to meet him. I need to meet him.. I am completely determined to meet him.. Whether he has a girlfriend, or doesnt want to meet me. I am meeting him. I feel that if i don't meet him there will always be that "what if?" factor.

It gets kind of frustrating.. I know there is something he is hiding but i wish i knew what it was. He kind of makes me seem like im the most unapproachable person alive. This past year... Something about him has really changed. For the worst.

.Hope.?.

It has been a month since i stopped talking to him.. I have no idea why but i don't give up. I can't give up. Something inside me is telling me not to let go. But everyone else is telling me to move on.

I just recently started getting into zodiacs and horoscopes. The more i read about them, the more they seem to be right.. I thought that i would test Casey and I's compatibility! And this is what happened...

Casey: Aries
Me: Sagittarius

Sagittarius + Aries

Fire + Fire = Explosion
Coming together with an Aries is all systems go! Sagittarius/Aries is a powerful and adventurous match, so an exciting joyride awaits you both in this fiery combination. In many cases it’s love at first sight — it won’t take long to fan the flames of each other’s desire. 
There is also a great deal of joy and playfulness in this combo. This is because your ruling planets are friendly. Likewise, you have a sense that each of you somehow reflects the qualities of the other. This ensures good understanding, and easy communication between you.
Occasionally you’ll find that your discussions get heated, even disagreeable. At other times your Aries partner will be thought-provoking and enthralling. At least there’ll never be a dull moment! Aries will keep you on your toes. They don’t like boring and predictable relationships any more than you do. To both of you, variety is the spice of life. 
Aries will fire you up and support you in your ambitions, and you’ll be able to take their boisterous energy and help them direct it to bigger and better things. This way you’ll both be inspired and supported. And over time, you’ll be able to bring out Aries’ intuition and idealism. 
There’s a karmic element to this relationship too; there’s something lucky and predestined about your meeting. This is one of those relationships that you know has a chance of working. 
Your freedom-loving independence is a good match for Aries’ dramatic and outgoing nature. There’ll be no stopping either of you if you decide to commit to this relationship. There’ll be plenty of travel, too, and that will also bring out your like-mindedness. 

The crazy thing is that ever since i stopped talking to him, i've been getting more signs than ever to talk to him. It seems that everywhere i go,  i get a little sign.. Maybe im over thinking the whole thing. Maybe it coincidence? Or maybe just too many things remind me of him..

The more i think about it.. The more i start to believe that we clicked.....