It's pretty well safe to say that i am not completely infatuated as i was before.. But, i would be lying if i said that i didn't miss him or that if he texted me, i wouldn't reply.
I want to be able to move past this, but i would actually love to have casey in my life too.
I am really trying not to show emotion about all of this. The less i spend time thinking about him, the easier it is getting over him! I still have those days when i wish i was talking to him.. Its like i crave the sound of his voice... I also have those moments when a song plays and i cant hold myself together.. I melt down.
..... There has to be a reason why i am desperately yearning his affection.
"I dont get waves of missing you anymore, they're more like tsunami tides in my eyes."
U.N.I. - Ed Sheeran
If I were you I would give up. I understand that you don't want to. I understand that it will hurt a LOT. But move on. Time will ease the pain more than you could ever imagine right now. If he really loved you he would respond to you. He would have even came all the way to Canada to see you. But he hasn't. You are wasting precious time wishing he cared as much as you do. Maybe one day he'll show up ready to love you the way you deserve and by then you will have found the perfect person and will see that he's not at all what you want or deserve. Sometimes things like this happen to you so that years down the road you will think of Casey and wonder why you even liked him in the first place. Or maybe you will forgive him and you two will live happily every after. But for now you have done everything you can do. So for your sake, let go. Completely.
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