.I.Almost.Do.

It's been more than a week since I've had contact with Casey. Of course i've texted him. No response. It just seems that lately I have nowhere to express my feelings so I just keep coming back to this stupid blog..

I finally told Casey about the blog.. I'm not sure if he has read it though.. Or even thought about reading it.. I guess that in a way, that's good. I have no idea how he would even react. Yes, at times i did make him sound like a horrible person.. But, i wouldn't change any of my blog posts. They're the UGLY truth.

I find it weird that I am so comfortable to tell people to read my blog. Like, i want people to know. Before i was pretty careful about who i told about him.. But now, I DON'T CARE.

At this point, i'm not sure about this blog.. Like, if there is no Casey, then there is obviously nothing to write about.. But, i seem to be able to always find something to talk about in these blogs.. Damn feelings.

I've pretty much lost hope in us.. Yup, lost it all....

 I find myself just laying in bed thinking.. Constantly. It sucks. I think about everything.. I ask questions.. Will we ever meet? Does he think of me still? Is there girl? Do i mean much to him? I really don't know.
 
There is something in me that keeps telling me that he still thinks about me.. Something keeps telling me that there is a reason for all of this. Maybe the world is just testing our strength. Or maybe he's dealing with a lot.. Maybe this is just happening to make me appreciate the time i have with him.. I don't know.

I was listening to they new Taylor Swift CD "RED" and i found this song and just thought and thought... Matches us... Like... Perfectly... Like.. WOW.

I Almost Do- Taylor Swift
-->>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_KH_3FCE2A


I miss casey and all i want is to see him or even talk to him.. Just hear his voice.. But i guess all i can do is just wait.. And sometiimes when i write these blogs, i find my self thinking a lot.. Who am i even talking to? My readers? Casey? Or just myself?